To my father

My father has been sending me e-mails saying how cute the boys look... he hasn't even met youngest.  I know sad, if you knew him you would understand my choices.  These e-mails leave me to believe that he is reading my blogs.  Fine.  Just sad that you refuse to change and would much rather see photos of them.  They don't know the difference, my kids have THREE grandfathers.  My father-in-law who is loving and supportive but stern when need be.  My sister father who has raised me in the kind and gentle way my father couldn't, who was supportive AND helpful.  HE always thinks of others, NEVER himself.  These are the kind of men i want my children to look at daily. 

My sister's father, my step dad.  Holding eldest days after being born @ my moms old apartment... man i miss that place and its mess...

My father isn't the kindest man, in fact hes the opposite.  He has grown his whole life with a sense of INSTANT entitlement.  What does this mean?  He thinks that he deserves everything, all the things he wants even though he spews poison at everyone he comes into contact with.  He thinks that respect is just given when he hasn't worked an ounce the whole lifetime i have known him, for it.  Sad?  Yes, it is sad that he refuses to be a better person in life, that he would rather continue being this horrible person than meet his grandkids.  That he has worked so hard to PREVENT ANY form of reconciliation.  So why would i want a man like you around my kids, to teach them to treat everyone with disrespect and disregard?  You're right I don't, I wont.  I wont put my kids threw the constant disappointment of YOU!  You have broken my heart to many times to be mended.  I have taped it back together and i'm keeping it this way, even if that means you wont be in my life in a direct non-harassing way.  Continue to read, it doesn't matter to me.  Look at these photos and remember how many times you have hurt others, yourself and your family.  Let these childrens growth be a reminder at how you have to change, how you never have when people have begged and pleaded for you to.

To my readers, I am sorry to dampen your day with this drivel, i just needed to say this on the assumption that he is reading. 

Good-bye Father, it's a shame you let it become like this; but i am proud at how I haven't let you break my spirit like you did in the past. 

My father with Eldest. 

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